Tangerine

Some say the rust of leaves

bring you thoughts from afar

be blessed by the weak current of the air

a faint scent to bathe you in disguise



Can I forget where we're grounded on

the identity we baggage along

If I were to pat you after a ten minute gaze

cheekbones, eyebrows, your nose

will you counter with a strike of defense

will you let me in?



To have past and present reconciled

to have love reshaped, and reaffirmed

you came along

as I discovered my attempts

to sense the coarseness of your palms






I love listening to your stories

seeing you as yourself

just sharing the same space with you

when we let the particles vibrate

as they do the talking

when we let the frequencies find its way

to juxtapose, collocate

or to be laid side by side

like our heads



for that

you are my tangerine

one I held dearly in my hands

there's nothing to hide

only to be shone by a pink hue

almost translucent

when I held you my hand

Act I Scene III

My heart sings a song

one that you don't hear of

as I wait

it started to sink in

a sense of familiarization 

as I wait

and I checked

fumbled simple, repetitive actions

book down cell up pivot waist to the side

cell down food munched get Oxford out of the bag

overpowered by distraction

my actions make no sense if I know not my purpose

I am here because 

I am going to see you

that image I've processed over and over again

in the dark room

now I think we have to change the setting

just a tad closer, maybe

did I tell you that your presence is much adored?

oh, yes I did

we can play ourselves as children

a release of our inner child

to run free, run wild and to explore to two's content

like how it would be if we met as kids

when smiles show it all, you see

I cupped a ball of gratitude in my hands

I wish you could see

lose our guards, maybe

we'll catch ourselves there

Nuzzle

How was your day, 

love?

This comes with one (1) compulsory multiple choice question

tagged as a minuscule valued entertainment; non sequitur

if you have preference towards categorization

What I'd answer a loved one,
How was your day,
love?

Your love penetrates my skin, caress while I sleep, 

like sunlight to life 

like vanilla beans pulverized for ice cream

like an intense smooch I wish to perform with you

as gentle as a young stream

innate as I translate my thoughts onto my fingers

then onto you 

What happened earlier

I. welcome back, my dear

II. I intend to walk you home, though I failed

III. I've learnt that hugs could answer questions

IV. I loved how you always give me thrill, deep down

So choose one, get it right and I shall requite you generously

A. I only

B. I and III

C. II and III

D. I, III and IV

E. All of the above

I Asked The Tree

Silence lingered between space

of two fingers wide

of a bottle of fine wine

   that was it

times up, the bell has tolled

come back again when a desired unit of measurement takes place

your heart shall be the gatekeeper

one that is sensible, and pulsates


Silence lingered between space

I wasn't sure of the circumstances

actually, I didn't care

it doesn't matter

after all that information gained


but it was different, you see

a ball grew, formed its existence

between the silence



I halted and you ran away

a spot not too far off

playing with the toys you fancy

kept yourself occupied

when I figured that it is time for silence to lapse

when quietness was absorbed,

finally

there were no embarrassment, no awkwardness and no haste traced

we coexist in agreement

in mutual, of composure





Silence has taken place

with comfort, pillowed between our bodies

La Grande Jatte

I saw him in the morn

I was unusually early

He was tall, with a broad frame

had that look one could easily imagine

     out of a 2-D description

but all I had in my head was you

it was all about you


He snapped away with his equipment

our wavelengths intervened

sometimes beings resonate in very

unique patterns,

but all I had in my head was you

it lead me back to you


When you say great minds think alike

when you share the same catch phrases

identity, associations, or a cuppa

do you label yourself

a class

with an emission of a collective pride and arrogance?

No - he was not an embodiment

but somehow, it was still about you


Of course

sometimes, I wonder if we've lost it

it feels like we're building blocks

wooden and plastic ones

red, blue, and yellow

as the blocks got stacked higher

as the surface expands

as we take turns to participate



Can I see you again

even when seasons change

ligaments torn, bones broken

skins shed and vessels thicken

Displacement

You've lost yourself in a peat swamp

the concrete jungle

a woven web of golden silk

When you swim to the surface to grasp

oxygen

you released self to your subconscious

effortless actions

comfort, familiarity

a modus operandi 

oh don't you deserve a little love

after a saunter in the snow storm

what tops a little pamper 

as some physical experiences

currencies can define

I just wanted to be soaked and grounded, 

you uttered

and there I stood,

forgotten

somewhere in between those lines

Hundred Yard Dash

The voice in my head echoed louder

I recognized, it doesn't differ only on its dynamics

but its depth

trenchant was its tone

sonorous was its resonance


So I drove to the nearest beach I could find

bared my feet and ran to the waters

I called upon your name

worked my intercostal muscles

left you messages

interposed between the abundance of minerals

there wasn't a slight reflection

I guess it had travelled miles and miles

and miles

to an island, maybe

least,

envisioned in my mind



When you think of me

doubt not, it is I

hellos, gentle brushes, or a warm presence

telepathic, maybe - maybe not


only when you think of me







My actions;

those which speak louder than words



I'm missing you

Lay Down

I saw you

standing at the roof top

flag poles within my frame

but of course, a stereo vision

my head tilted up

I started dreaming when you're not around

you were smiling and waving in return

an excited gesture

you looked fairly happy

a reason obtained



An elevation

I smiled, caught myself thinking of you

muscles retained, more light absorbed

chronologically, of cause and effect

what had you left

and what had you taken away



You know, I'm an island girl

I fall in love with sound of waves

and those echoed from gigantic seashells

I become fearless

I become closer to self

I become




that doesn't really matter

I'd like to go with you

wherever is our destination

I wish I could say


how tough could that be?

what is there to lose?

I asked everyday

just so I can paint my imagination

and show you a piece of it

not flashing

just to share

joy I think you might like to see



A bottle of sand, maybe

as I send my thoughts

you'll be delightful to watch

handling woodwork and such

Sea Breeze

We learnt that goodbyes have their moments

each storyteller fights to have their ideas bought and sold

sometimes we contest for a golden ticket

for reasons, to be awaken

to be buried and to be lid in inferno


Perhaps you might say otherwise

you are always about ongoing action

carefree from unnecessary shackles

Lets argue, lets have a debate

and award ourselves

no matter what ends on our plate

I love you like that,

yes, you can't see

your objectified obsession(s), favourite coloured shirt or

favourite memory of intimacy,

I wish they could tell you something




I love you like that,

can't you see

Dusk of Gray

My Greek chorus starts to sing

the women of Argos

as I waited for you beside the lake

there were the earth and the sky

an awaited response

what was I thinking

there's nothing wrong

I smiled to myself

but what was I thinking


You got into your closet

put on your gears

and vanished into thin air

you have one goal, only one vision

your theory of utility

sets a different tone -

for liberation,

is what you pitch for

the greatest value to be protected, and cherished for




And what was I thinking

I have a beginning, and an end written

you remained, strong as a soldier

a ball of light, glowing and reshaping its existence -

stay for little awhile

I held

we can walk a little further down

forget proposal sheets

lets both amalgamate in our abstract landscapes

Somniloquy

Did you just

planted a kiss on my neck,

and one more

within the radius of my third lumbar vertebrate


I like it when you had your presence linger

between my arms, on my bosom

or embraced from the back


I drifted into the subconscious

   with a message intended to be conveyed

you might have had the scent traced

and dropped by for awhile

did you?






with you

I can never stop

no artificial goals nor mechanical motivations

but a heartbeat churned within

what observed was dynamic

gives new life, a fresh perspective

and the depth I could possibly explore

between light, and the dark

and much of the undefined, and undiscovered




stories we've read and regurgitate

standards we've interpreted and imitate

emotions touches our core

to manipulate, resulting submission to be gleaned

I am here

readily donned

so that you can complete your role

played as part of your fable

in this lifetime




I wish I could touch you

without inhibitions

Cliff

It seems that there were lesser existence of humans today

at least, on her surface

even so

Beth had to deal with the usual small talks

those you have with new people you meet, and the usuals

sometimes being quiet seems to be the only solution

not because you are

because you want to discourage


Of course

she could find a handful, or even even more

those she came across as being fond of

it is probability, it is measurable

but at this moment

she would rather be alone

to run away from a lousy framework

that just doesn't fit to be lived through


The other day

when Beth finally get to break out from a collective of figures

such joy

she skipped along the road

when she wins her solitude

as she came to realize

a very familiar expression

which might be a thought

he once shared of





Thank you for teaching my how to fly

Treacherous Whispers

I remember it all

I remember it all about you

how my curiosity was aroused

when you used to utilize your space

it was always the New York Times

those old English text

were you from another planet?

a high tendency, possibly

wasn't too eager, but

I concurred in silence



An illusion, constructed ——


I remember

that frame, so petite

one that I can sense from a sea of crowd

one that I know, if I saw in a foreign street

I would run

as if I've lost my mind


I would run for you





A flashback, rewound ——


fruits or nuts, for cereal

I asked

both

you answered

sounded authoritative

sounded bold, with a tinge of arrogance

clean and precise

like your art


I was intrigued, captured

like a deer, with multiple antlers

in a forest, covered in snow






all about you

as I step forward

all about you

as I had my head turned

wouldn't it be better

if I chose to remain stagnant

in the first place

wouldn't it be better

if I admire you from afar

even if I had my eyes opened

if I didn't get to know this much about you

if I didn't have to find so much of your

pieces along the way

if I didn't have to find out how,

or what I can do about them












it hurts

when I extract myself out of the picture

that feeling

as if your heart shrunk half its size








I wept,

for you are too beautiful

painstakingly beautiful


as I held myself arrested

Red Velvet

Prelude

The storm of heart endured

as its dance evolved

intensified, dramaticized 

A phoenix in sight, form of fire

where will she land

with the fire she begets



Verse 

How can I ever reach you

amidst external disturbance

walls and hindrance

we run free inwards

in our own space of hills, streams and valleys

perhaps we can overlay

share a waterfall or some moon dusts -

in this tangible leeway

maybe an ice-cream, or a comforter


Chorus

if I could freeze time

unfreeze you and I

so many we can explore

so many to create

we can go deep into the waters

we can go high and low, on a ship


snap but pardon me,

I don't see why this can't be ecstatic

come in with me, and I'll show you more

I'll show you more




Bridge

I remember you and the sunlight

you compliment each other

my heart skipped a beat

even if I blush

you'd steal it for your own keeping

and wouldn't tell me so -

my dear, 

it has been awhile

thank you for the flowers,

those you made and kept in your bubble

I'll groom mine and have them handed to you

when the time comes -

お帰り

欢迎回来

吻一个

大衣挂上

咖啡一杯

给你个按摩

给你个拥抱

给你纯情的笑


欢迎回来

给你撒娇

任你奔跑

那天我们在黑暗里

想牵起你的手

与你淘气

哪怕那一秒

接收不对的暗号


欢迎回来

洗个脸

泡个热澡

松懈 在沙发上

说个故事来听

你的童年

心碎的往事

美好的回忆

理想与梦想

对我的爱意 或许

如果你愿意


欢迎回来

舒适的被窝

有张大被

给你安抚 给你暖

给你热情 给你溺爱

也给你 很多空间

想像空间



亲爱的

欢迎回来

Songbird

I wonder if I've ever stayed in your heart

swing on swings of your garden of mystic

all the time when I'm with you

you gave me butterflies inside


I'd like to look into your eyes

with no fear or constraints

have your language memorized

have your scent ingrained



Can I fly with you

into a world we've never been

we can be whoever we want

whoever we like about ourselves

trapped in the form of each

but never poor of our souls


you'll live under my skin

and I'll live underneath your bones

even though sometimes

bodies do hinder -

nonetheless,

I love it when you smile

they speak of something to me

they never lie

and I can not help but to give you more

each time you do

Mist

I stood by the sea

I longed

into a default picture

nothing changes but the colour of the sky

the pattern and sound of waves

the fine horizontal line between sky and water

but most probably, an agitated, intrusive rhythm


I argued

of you and I

didn't know where to go

skirt dried and soaked wet



was it the waves

I thought I heard you calling

you know, me and my imagination



I'm sorry

when I saw you across the waters

I shattered

I cried but it wasn't audible

it couldn't be translated


when my arms held you

I give you love

I give you home

and I give you earth

you gave me warmth

you gave me pulse

you gave me love

and more tears


"Don't ever do this again"
unconsciously expressed


but all the more,

you stood right in front of me

I held you tight

that is all I need to know


that is all I need to know

133, Perry Index

You

doing that thing

within your comfort zone

most times you make yourself happy

since it has became a source that simple, derived

I smiled when you answered

most of the time

You

doing that thing

thinking it was another harmless act

again, repetitively, with consistency 

I could not fathom

it came to me

instantaneously 

I've been stabbed through my body, my flesh

my heart, black holes, see through -

when your world resumed its pace

when the universe picks you up and gives you 

yet another interesting ride

you said nobody's a fool

I am, nonetheless,

a living testimonial for your null hypothesis

you flew away

like I've always liked witnessing

the most gratifying satisfaction I gain

from a third person point of view

if only, I am a spectator

which I shall forever be

utmost absurd

a reflection

you rotting old fool

you'll never learn

anatomy wonders

Anterior

I woke under the lazy sun

warm and humid

the weather sometimes hits my nerves

maybe, one of the reason why the land stifles me

My intention grew wings

and flew to you

like a kid

throwing stones toward a window on the third floor

like a rock pigeon

resting near the window (without a post)

like the flower petals

you drop as they wilt

               everywhere you go

you're just too distracted amongst all to notice

how we were designed to be stitched

when I am your sole distraction

Posterior

Our conversations, I learnt

were mapped to protrude through

a web of intricacies

sometimes our points meet

many a times, we slipped

outsmart not

not our method of execution

when I see you, we were prepared

when we don't, the ball keeps rolling

I crave for more

albeit the stream, calm as it flows

assures me with comfort

my seeds were planted;

I play no games

I've lost my ability to shield myself

before I died

I felt a tap on my shoulder earlier in the afternoon

was it you, my dear

was it you

we live in one vessel to begin with

you and I

just it seems

we'll never get to embrace each other

outwardly, audibly,

what more recklessly

my dear one

Meander Away

music remained playing in the air

nonchalant, 

through the bell of the gramophone

donned in a sun dress and a white hat 

she opened the gate

of a white fence 

wondered, did she

if all could go well

a thought of ridicule 

blinded

how could she not see 

between

the fragility of her shell

and what the universe choose to dispose

so many secrets you own

as you wander

selectively

into space, chasms and the dark waters

so much #love you've showered 

or squandered

to those you measured worthy

who is she to you

the reindeer, squirrel or the lobster

a dandelion, one-eyed snow wolf, or a hedwig

chew my heart strings 

bite them scatter 

so you can see rainbows in the sky

chew my heart strings

bite them scatter

so you can see rainbows in the sky

Vivid

Sweet is what I recalled

from the surface of my lips


I lazed from a sea of blue

my eyes speak of a rapid movement


You were here with me on the bed

that projection

must be you and I, kissing


I remember how tender you were

in the dark

yet you can attack so blatantly

for you are a survivor

you've seen, died,

loved and killed



Do you not understand?

I just want to be with you

swallow my presence and blend with the background

between the pins of your world map

pages of your books

under the hoofs of the plastic-miniatured animals

or just lying on your white bed sheet

like a ghost

so that you can enjoy your solitude

and that I can love you

without a physical experience



I'd like to see you as yourself

running free

amongst the contorted structure we live in

to witness is such joy to one

as to be affirmed


You touched me

beauty

even so temporarily, we co-exist


Let me taste you again

the sweetness of your lips

until we are put asunder