Holeri Holeri, Holero.

Peace sits in after the havoc pulled us down.

It was deep, down under.

As if that is all that he could go, you see.



I tried to see, to see if its really a better way off, even if it sprang out from the darkest motive.

Where else on the other side, I see love, a rare sight it is, and it wouldn't struck if it is not for this tragedy.

It was actually better to have that cherished, instead of moaning, ...and all in agony.

For some reasons it felt that everything is sitting on where it is supposed to be, I see the details of this arrangement, it was a craft work, with utmost delicate craftsmanship I have ever seen.

I thought you would go, but, as we would always say,
never this way though, you would never have to leave like that,
...I thought so.


We will be well,

and they will be forgiven too.

A Flare.

Befriend.

May I befriend you?

A thought flashed.

A thought flashed without my lips forming its position.

Not ready to be conveyed,
but clearly projected.

I have heard of how it was supposed to sound,
and look like.

Through the forms of symbols, at least.










It

popped out from my subconscious self within,

most fresh, when a smell was incorporated with sunshine...

I searched for my scattered dialogues.

I found you.

Telegram Wired.

I have so much joy to share with you.

- with you,

only because you were the one who brought me here.

And without doing so,

it wouldn't mean anything to another.




It was a beginning, and it had an end(not that I would call that as one), and it even had a sequel! (If ever there was an end to start with, you know)...
Because it is a cycle, virtual or vicious, ...you see where I am coming from? Do you?
Even if it had to come to the worst, the monologue will just roll on and on and on.

Wish I could talk to you like before,
like wild horses running free
in the green, as if it has no ends.





It's okay.

I think, you might understand...

Yea, I think so.

:)




p/s: It is going to be a beautiful one!

Feelings.

Why are you crying, baby.



You are weeping non-stop.



I didn't quite remember actually.




Of all I tried, all I gave,... I was being very careful, I was doing what I wanted to, and what I didn't want to. I guess it takes two to be artificial. I feel like breaking it, and just walk away, walk away from it. It's so much easier.


Its embarrassing. I had to give up. Its a shame. I can't have it solved.
Are you telling me that I'm running away from it?
You do not even fathom how much this was punched in.
All I can do is to withdraw, so that I do not put myself in agony.
And then when it went away for awhile, I will collect my will to move forward,
...not to love you again,
I just want to make things right... least that I can do before I leave,
least that I can do before I leave... where ever it is.








Trying to forget my feelings of love.
wish I've never lived this long
hope it'll never come again
Like I've never lost you
and ...like I've never really had you

Bite Mark Decode.

I would like to speak to you.
May I do so?

I would ask you how you are doing lately,
in the midst of a whole load of work pile,
applications, catch ups to make.

I would also like to throw you shout outs,
as if we were talking from a faraway distance,
between cars, or valleys
I'd make myself heard, and
paint the sky with a warm light
and a light breeze.


So much that I want to ask you about,
talk to you to,
but it is as much that I could find out,
by traffic, by vehicles, third parties, people and shadows I've never knew...

and that is how I manage to make my communication made,
though knowing that they are all only in my head.



If I wouldn't have gone that far,
I might have had spaces filled.
Why was I subconsciously misled by my inner voices,
how did I fall in...

How could one do this to itself,...


I could judge no better.


I wish that I could hear from you,
and it didn't just came and go.

I thought about it from time to time...
if it would be my last wish,





I'd wish to have it fulfilled.