regulate

eyes shut glazed light

I listen to you breathe

        your ribcage expand, trachea glistened 

I wiggled my arm

"stay",  you said

we hugged

fingertips against your skin    

desire, traced

but my dear one        you are cherished

and when we finally moved out of that equation 

midnight moonrise

I turned on the light            disoriented

I said to you

I too worry that I'd be destabilised, away from you

all I feel is that creeping attachment

wanting to be next to you

inseparable

you suggested for supper

a walk out in the middle of the night

my gut says to move around and ground

and I thank you for responding to that 

through and through I knew we needed time to trust 

that I knew you are vulnerable

and that I too am, allowing myself to participate

but in motion, we move

in motion, we heal

in motion, we grow

in motion, we let loose

thank you 

for regulating us

in ways you never thought would work