hue (we called and talked about God)

 A picture sent on our present - sunrise

we talked about the hue

its reflection on the clouds

And when the sun sets, I looked up to the sky

it was the same hue

I sent you a vibration

as I recall our conversation of how you see sunrise and sunset through your window

mine, just sunset

We called and talked about God 

how we were linked

what was surreal and divine

me infatuated

you unavailable 

We called and talked about God 

how we were linked

what was surreal and divine

me not accountable

you, impacted

We called and talked about God 

how we were linked

what was surreal and divine

me crying

you apologising

We called and talked about God 

how we were linked

what was surreal and divine

repair and recovery

 I kissed your neck a couple of times

            soft, sensual, instinctual

            traced my tongue around yours ears

and halt

My senses returned - this was uncalled for. You expressed feeling violated

            this was already established - no touch

            my heart sank

            I had no means to cause hurt

I apologised, profusely. You held me close, forgave me quickly

            put it on the drinks, you said

            we are now fair, you said

            it didn't go too far, we acknowledged

            

            tucked my hair back to my left ear

            we hugged, so closely

            as I felt ashamed and ugly, you were there with me

            facing my demons

It is okay, I told myself

            that I am rejected, made a mistake, yet still have you around

            poor baby, my poor one

            threading through messiness and mistakes

            after all that we've done