my then ability is to be able to be open
and offer intimacy
perhaps I gave you the space that you desired, while you were grieving
but when it all ended
I wasn't ready
I'm sorry lynn, you have a gift of feeling so much for the other
you ached for him, you mourned for him
you were absorbed in his cloud
unaware, you were
did you ask for it?
did you ask to be loved? in return?
no. but you went ahead. you didn't know how to protect. a curious fawn you were.
and so you followed the guide
you were swayed. swooped.
I'm sorry you didn't know better
15 years later, here you are.
back at where you once were, where he shared his pain
it was yours, as much as it was his. you heard him. his cry, his agony, him, not you.
Him, not you.
But I remembered, you wanting it so bad, to be you
time froze
Unknowingly,
you transcended
and now, you've returned
