Eyes Locked

For every little moment I remembered

One of them would be your eyes

        when they slice through corners of the room

        and pin drop silence

That very afternoon when you and your sister shared the space 

I remember identifying your bond, because of your shared eyes

I had no inkling but a hunch spoke to me

        so strong it was

that those eyes are your father's

        your sister and yours

The day came when we had to look into each other's eyes

followed by a mirroring exercise

I looked at her eyes, alternating from the left, to the right

        I could see him

Your sister is a gentle soul, a courageous one

        a kind one

Her eyes seemed to always glimmer 

        from those times I looked directly into

        to those that I observed from the side

Amongst all things that I thought I could communicate with her in the exercise

        I remembered telling her, that I'm in love with your sister

        and there it was, crystal clear

        imbued with a tinge of shyness, vulnerability and openness 

        at the very least, I thought I could share that with her through looking into her eyes

I cannot deny,

I wished it was you that was opposite me - no, actually, I can easily see that happen

The space we share whenever we do, is a magical one

So was that for me and your sister

I am thankful to have shared that connection with her, in that very circumstance

I'm not sure if she could tell what I instinctively shared

In fact, I've always been held back by the weight and oddness I carry, constantly 

That all happened when our eyes locked

little did anyone know,

I too am grateful

Mirror Image

That look you wore - which I knew I made happen

with your curiosity, like a bee to a flower

how odd it is, to sense your attention on me

as I pour mine on you

        if you notice, it's like a wash

        

        maybe with a pink hue

From my enthusiastic questions

and how it's been allowed - I hope you know

how I feel for you

I always like where our conversation flows, we talked and talked

you are like a child, an inquisitive and eloquent one

Here we are, I hope our thirsts are quenched 

in this timely phase

        I wonder too, if not all the time

   

        why do you have that effect on me

Someone Great

Electronic music 

creates a pulse in my body

I started dancing

long before I knew it 

a quest is about to be embarked

My poor understanding of therapy 

got me caught up with misconceptions that I'd rather keep

to not tarnish the idealistic view of what the world has of it

perhaps that didn't matter

what mattered was how it could be of service

So we launched to the sky

a quest to seek help

to find the right, great-someone

so I can heal

    it makes me wonder what you've went through to strive such drive

    for my faith was left squandered 

    and I do not know what does it mean to move forward

Thank you

for all I know

you're my great-someone

Oddness

 Odd is when it sounded like I wanted to woo 

my subconscious seem to have a goal

wanting more

wanting it all

an obsession rooted within

my free soul wonders

exploring every inch

Odd is when I put you in a frame

The mind does its dance

Wanting you had become fiction

 as it stands in the way of the present 

an obsession rooted within

my free soul wonders

exploring every inch

Odd is when I acknowledge that I have fallen

that I am capable to feel 

your magic as another human being

 always, we thought we see it all

until we fall, and fall again

Odd is that one moment

where we exchange energy

 that distance that sent me a current

since then

I've been trying hard to ground

grounded

when the rain washes away the pain

I hear calmness in my veins

swollen tear ducts

as though all has come to its end

I have learnt that my feelings are genuine 

and that my heart is broken

for I could only see you wilt in front of my eyes

not hearing from you aches me 

but when you appear

love overflows

nothing even matters 

I am grateful that it is this door that emerged in sight

how I feel for you will stay for a little longer

for I have made peace with my presence and power

perhaps no future to pave

but now, it is all it is

KPP

I sometimes forget, as much as I love being physically involved

it is the attraction pinned that decides how far one could go

even virtually

love making takes a lot to come to terms

it takes a bare face

a comfortable body

trust

comfort

an eager heart

such intimacy, perhaps is what I'm seeking from deep within

and there you were, lying naked

me before you

you before me

angels

My angels got geared up to battle

events that happened after a pair of snips

I've got tested for love and kindness

love and kindness

love and kindness

as I teared after a long, hard hurtful bash

thinking what could have been different

wishing that I have a bigger heart to absorb

but I'm just a mere soul, like another

and then I recalled how blessed I actually am

bestowed with by love of every form

having friends guiding me through hurdles, even in a larger sphere 

I receive generous shoulders for support

how could I've been shortsighted, even at the slightest 

until the engine runs dry

strangers chose to help, they have no where to rush

my heart, ready to receive kindness

I lived the moment, every bit of it

as I witness,

all of the angels before my eyes