light as feather

my embrace to you            from the back

wasn't at all planned

it sprung from affection

deposited through the cells of my being

I thought you'd see that coming

and that you were aware

sorry it scared you

it froze us for a moment

before you jolted a verbal respond 

but even before it settled

I remembered your scent

and how you snugged in            light as a feather

it was a hug that was mutual

albeit defined within parameters 

sorry it scared you

we shifted, both you and I

amongst the music played

I wasn't assuming anything 

no agendas

I offered        in the present

it was clean, yet

sorry that caught you off guard

in my eyes, I knew you are a gentle soul

I might not know who you are

but I see through it all

in that moment 

a hug would suffice

for you are to me            an endearment

light as feather

Sunk

my body sinks into the bed after the rainfall

my nervous system, heightened                an irregular rhythm

you left me a spot, with no room to go 

my heart beats in the pulse of a triangle

            as I witness myself

were we fully aware? of what could go wrong

or if we could soar, instead of falling flat

perhaps our difference is that I could only see the good

while you, a pessimist 

fear not, if escalation is of a pout

I will take flight lightly

my body shall heal 

until I see you again

Fall Again

A new season starts, with a faint smell of blossoms

I remember your frequency, just like your scent and touch that will be eventually encountered

Oh I do like you. I see you so distinctively,

            like the sun, warm and bright 

You funny person. Happily being yourself -

I see you, living in your own world

with such freedom

            oh such joy is to be with one's self

basking in your own light

Thank you for your honesty

and for demonstrating what's possible

may you shine, always, in ways that you naturally do

you ball of light

loved

Your forever fan,

Lynn

Ibu

When the curtains drew,

she didn't realise she had lost her friend(s)

Their language had differed since then,

care left unnoticed

love buried with no trace

Same song, different phases 

one enjoyed with the depth of unknown

the other, almost singing to an end of the road

Is she the only one carrying the weight?

Seemed like it. She could no longer discern an earnest, genuine breath of a check-in

She was told to be in her own world, while no one actually sat down and ask

She thought they were on her side

She thought she was on her side

Until it all broke loose

Goodbye my friends

Goodbye my friend

snooze

Time and space recalled

this particular density of the morning air

and the stillness coexisting within and outside of my body

        waking up to your presence curled around me - 

I remember longing for you this way, many months ago

when we were still close, intertwined

        many moons after, we stopped talking

I lit a candle for you

your name whispered under my breath

I remember longing for you this way, many months ago

tenderly

I'm surprise I still do

unfold

I breathe to random strings of air

    an undercurrent

    I imagined folding a piece of paper, writing "(Name), I love you,

           and this is my truth"

and I will have it offered to whoever that matters

My body, telling me stories

naming a pull

drinking in it all

performative or otherwise

I name it, my truth

    including the grieve that is living in my body

I no longer want to live in a constructed oblivion 

    my prayers held close to my heart, regardless it being heard or not

    my truth will always stay with me,

    even if I'm misunderstood

    even if I'm wounded 

I will not retaliate, same as what we talked about the other day

I breathe to random strings of air

    an undercurrent

    buried in a hum, a buzz

I then started to sing

    and move 

    freely

glass balls

 I would wake up to remember a thought 

pen it down into my little notebook 

include it into one of the things that I would rehearse to tell you

this time, it would be that I've always respected you

by telling you my truth, it doesn't mean that I intend to challenge

it is exactly because of how I adore you that I made sure to share with you - what matters to me 

and that adoration still stays in me

I never thought that I could miss you so dearly

I've also been seeking the message to convey from my soul to yours

with me, you don't have to be afraid

I'll not bring harm to you

I am confident that nothing could go wrong

I am sure that I would protect your heart, like a warrior that I am

...isn't it odd? The roles I see myself experiencing when you're near me

Nothing would go wrong when we're together

Nothing

I don't wish that this is a burden to neither of us

I would do it, steadily collecting my reflections

and have them shared with you one day

my little glass balls

and the new found love I have for you and I