bring back my bonny to me

My body calls for me

        "come back"

over and over again

as I maxed the vibrator 

as I climaxed over and over with sweat, sticky skin

while my fantasies, exercised

perhaps one of my most natural gifts

she kept calling - come back

after multiple arches

when I released on the toilet bowl

the pelvic floor muscles were still operating in rhythm

        "welcome back to your body," she said

yes captain,

welcome back

I got out of my head,

back to my body

and I'm free again

in all honesty,

I wish to have this physical experience shared 

with you

would I

craving an extra doze of you

my senses     engulfing

the tonality of your voice    how you speak

your brown palms, stubby fingers

your soul that I thought I saw with my blurred vision

I tried registering it all 

the physical

spiritual

hints of where we've met, and clicked

finding traces of our memory

for I fear that I will forget once again

if I knew you couldn't meet me

would I?

light as feather

my embrace to you            from the back

wasn't at all planned

it sprung from affection

deposited through the cells of my being

I thought you'd see that coming

and that you were aware

caught off guard, an inch

it froze us for a moment

before you jolted a verbal respond 

but even before it settled

I remembered your scent

and how you snugged in            light as a feather

it was a hug that was mutual

albeit defined within parameters 

caught off guard, an inch

we shifted, both you and I

amongst the music played

I wasn't assuming anything 

no agendas

I offered        in the present

it was clean, yet

sorry that caught you off guard

in my eyes, I knew you are a gentle soul

I might not know who you are

but I see through it all

in that moment 

a hug would suffice

for you are to me            an endearment

light as feather

Sunk

my body sinks into the bed after the rainfall

my nervous system, heightened                an irregular rhythm

you left me a spot, with no room to go 

my heart beats in the pulse of a triangle

            as I witness myself

were we fully aware? of what could go wrong

or if we could soar, instead of falling flat

perhaps our difference is that I could only see the good

while you, a pessimist 

fear not, if escalation is of a pout

I will take flight lightly

my body shall heal 

until I see you again

Fall Again

A new season starts, with a faint smell of blossoms

I remember your frequency, just like your scent and touch that will be eventually encountered

Oh I do like you. I see you so distinctively,

            like the sun, warm and bright 

You funny person. Happily being yourself -

I see you, living in your own world

with such freedom

            oh such joy is to be with one's self

basking in your own light

Thank you for your honesty

and for demonstrating what's possible

may you shine, always, in ways that you naturally do

you ball of light

loved

Your forever fan,

Lynn

Ibu

When the curtains drew,

she didn't realise she had lost her friend(s)

Their language had differed since then,

care left unnoticed

love buried with no trace

Same song, different phases 

one enjoyed with the depth of unknown

the other, almost singing to an end of the road

Is she the only one carrying the weight?

Seemed like it. She could no longer discern an earnest, genuine breath of a check-in

She was told to be in her own world, while no one actually sat down and ask

She thought they were on her side

She thought she was on her side

Until it all broke loose

Goodbye my friends

Goodbye my friend

snooze

Time and space recalled

this particular density of the morning air

and the stillness coexisting within and outside of my body

        waking up to your presence curled around me - 

I remember longing for you this way, many months ago

when we were still close, intertwined

        many moons after, we stopped talking

I lit a candle for you

your name whispered under my breath

I remember longing for you this way, many months ago

tenderly

I'm surprise I still do