craving an extra doze of you
my senses engulfing
the tonality of your voice how you speak
your brown palms, stubby fingers
your soul that I thought I saw with my blurred vision
I tried registering it all
the physical
spiritual
hints of where we've met, and clicked
finding traces of our memory
for I fear that I will forget once again
if I knew you couldn't meet me
would I?
my embrace to you from the back
wasn't at all planned
it sprung from affection
deposited through the cells of my being
I thought you'd see that coming
and that you were aware
caught off guard, an inch
it froze us for a moment
before you jolted a verbal respond
but even before it settled
I remembered your scent
and how you snugged in light as a feather
it was a hug that was mutual
albeit defined within parameters
caught off guard, an inch
we shifted, both you and I
amongst the music played
I wasn't assuming anything
no agendas
I offered in the present
it was clean, yet
sorry that caught you off guard
in my eyes, I knew you are a gentle soul
I might not know who you are
but I see through it all
in that moment
a hug would suffice
for you are to me an endearment
light as feather
my body sinks into the bed after the rainfall
my nervous system, heightened an irregular rhythm
you left me a spot, with no room to go
my heart beats in the pulse of a triangle
as I witness myself
were we fully aware? of what could go wrong
or if we could soar, instead of falling flat
perhaps our difference is that I could only see the good
while you, a pessimist
fear not, if escalation is of a pout
I will take flight lightly
my body shall heal
until I see you again
A new season starts, with a faint smell of blossoms
I remember your frequency, just like your scent and touch that will be eventually encountered
Oh I do like you. I see you so distinctively,
like the sun, warm and bright
You funny person. Happily being yourself -
I see you, living in your own world
with such freedom
oh such joy is to be with one's self
basking in your own light
Thank you for your honesty
and for demonstrating what's possible
may you shine, always, in ways that you naturally do
you ball of light
loved
Your forever fan,
Lynn
When the curtains drew,
she didn't realise she had lost her friend(s)
Their language had differed since then,
care left unnoticed
love buried with no trace
Same song, different phases
one enjoyed with the depth of unknown
the other, almost singing to an end of the road
Is she the only one carrying the weight?
Seemed like it. She could no longer discern an earnest, genuine breath of a check-in
She was told to be in her own world, while no one actually sat down and ask
She thought they were on her side
She thought she was on her side
Until it all broke loose
Goodbye my friends
Goodbye my friend
Time and space recalled
this particular density of the morning air
and the stillness coexisting within and outside of my body
waking up to your presence curled around me -
I remember longing for you this way, many months ago
when we were still close, intertwined
many moons after, we stopped talking
I lit a candle for you
your name whispered under my breath
I remember longing for you this way, many months ago
tenderly
I breathe to random strings of air
an undercurrent
I imagined folding a piece of paper, writing "(Name), I love you,
and this is my truth"
and I will have it offered to whoever that matters
My body, telling me stories
naming a pull
drinking in it all
performative or otherwise
I name it, my truth
including the grieve that is living in my body
I no longer want to live in a constructed oblivion
my prayers held close to my heart, regardless it being heard or not
my truth will always stay with me,
even if I'm misunderstood
even if I'm wounded
I will not retaliate, same as what we talked about the other day
I breathe to random strings of air
an undercurrent
buried in a hum, a buzz
I then started to sing
and move
freely
