I kissed your neck a couple of times
soft, sensual, instinctual
traced my tongue around yours ears
and halt
My senses returned - this was uncalled for. You expressed feeling violated
this was already established - no touch
my heart sank
I had no means to cause hurt
I apologised, profusely. You held me close, forgave me quickly
put it on the drinks, you said
we are now fair, you said
it didn't go too far, we acknowledged
tucked my hair back to my left ear
we hugged, so closely
as I felt ashamed and ugly, you were there with me
facing my demons
It is okay, I told myself
that I am rejected, made a mistake, yet still have you around
poor baby, my poor one
threading through messiness and mistakes
after all that we've done
