prostitution

the air filled with a flow

we glide with

when I was trying to grasp your frequency

there's something I found out I would like to be close with,

an affinity



your still, relaxed and calmed presence

I breathe in and out with

as we sit into our designated positions




it was a night of the new moon

I got bold for awhile





I like it that you're easy to be around with

and it doesn't take a lot for beats to be written

how your voice touched the base of

             how you hear me through the recorded waves

you whispered, as though we just got up from bed


or were you just worn out




and that bit of honesty     -       honey

of course I know you have good ears

for you to be good in things you do

and that odd form of communication just went on

back and forth

back and forth







I like how comfortable it was

I don't know what was it but yes

            it was just nice








so I will wait for you to pack

and exit the door in the dark

what was let down to be stroked was a nice one


I didn't do it for you but hey,

you were worth it too




I just wished I could...

make you coffee

grab a couple of beer

have some more conversations











and then I grabbed my wallet

took out 600 ringgit



deal paid by cash

runaway

in my head sparked those synapses

the real world where we can coexist

I spoke so much

as I took your hand

I watched you smile

all doubts melt away

in those small, soluble sachets



I guess you have no idea

or never you will know

how to push aside a current you caught

a certain degree of observation

being in control

and letting it go



of taboos and suffocated restrictions

wild thoughts end up shooting unto the sky

perhaps paved clearly

that this path is to be taken solo

oh you have no idea

where this could lead to



in a different dimension then

we can meet and again explore

what lays in between the streams

space and ashes and mountains

and our form of existence




see you again, boy

密语

平静的想起

可以倒数美好的回忆


是冰岛大自然的语言

与台上最自由的心灵


谢谢你们的成全

build up

That measured moment when sights exchanged

got me transported

how much I wish that we can see the world

side by side

just us

you and I




you never did like to look up as much

rather buried in a state of ecstasy

but when you do, your eyes speak of curiosity

round and piercing

they speak to me

I just don't know how




I wonder what I'm leaving lose right now

a leak of fondness

I thought I've seen enough

hence a consciousness to envelope a self


you must be a shy one

and I've grown to be less expressive

I wonder if we'll ever be heard


till the end of time

wild curls

just as I sparked my journey of a fondness

expanded, boiled and reached out


I've came to acknowledge one of your physical attractions that got me gaga

thus, a mind that wanders beyond your first position presentation


and so I imagined of what's left behind

that small frame

thick framed glasses

big eyes

non-smiley expression

and that wavy-volumed mane

isn't that a reflection of state?


next thing we know is the length cut short

I didn't even get to express the loss


just maybe,

we deserve a piece of silence


just so we can run free

dissolve

my senses register to a familiar space

physicalized by a combination of some personal preferences

same old cement counter top, manned by 2 owners

shrunk in a vertical space, with lots of green and sunlight in the exterior

in the middle of the forest - not too deep

slightly paved for sustainable development

my favourite guys, which I don't really talk to

as usual, we just exist

this need not to be an indication

      just a fond little picture, constructed by my little subconsciousness

slowly

it dissolves into reality

Plan Z:

Jane is housebound and doesn't invite calls.

John has a recording session to make.

Judy has a flight to catch short after.

Jean doesn't feel comfortable being called to prep in a short span of time.

Jack responded in a different time zone, and is committed to a pre-arranged interview.

Jude has a busy schedule to attend to.

Josh isn't comfortable to speak upon the subject on a different vehicle. Maybe he understands that free speech could only be exercised on gray lines. The world wide web for example.

Jade feels she is not the right person to approach. She offered to help, though it functioned more like an act of kindness to be absorbed.

Jill checked her schedule and has to be present in a meeting.






Jason said yes.
And Jason hurt himself just right before and therefore is not able to make it, after our agreement.






God knows I've tried hard. At least the universe does.