recognition

those sitcom parodies sounded very nostalgic

my source of happiness, derived from the contentment of decoding messages

topped by the familiar extremes of simple indulgence

of sodium packets and capitalized coffee chains



today I sit on a rather different realm, creating different experiences

it has nothing to do with lessons, since each page

is a brand new breed that writes his own column

long live - doesn't lead you to a goal



I can't help but to not be absorbed by the after effects

consequences I once hand painted

they glided through air, without my control

as I sat firmly on the ground, my roots retained



I am then in love of myself, the more comfortable of my own skin

darkness prevails

as I smiled and

butterflies

The morning I woke to you

my hand cupped on your shoulder

you sleep like a gentle gaint

breathing through your calmest nodes

             you never liked the sun too bright

I absorb,


as I take pride in your happiness





I remember how you kissed my forehead

manifesting the actions of love

onto a new found subject

skillful, you were


walls fall apart

I forgot of how to speak





that morning

our fields overlapped

you picked a flower from the ground

one that I told you about

hence one that I resemble in your faded shades


I wonder how much it came with a meaning

I wonder where they stood



pass and present juxtaposed with a tinge of newness

rebuilt, as we forget



I cannot recall

how nonsensical your speech sounded

before we get to move on to our preferred, comfortable zones








it then came back,

a dried, well kept flower

with a load of memories

recovered, like singing in the woods

I wondered again

how much was it traded for

to be again, manifested as a symbol of distinction



maybe that is what you were out for

and maybe, I was out roaming to be killed

Dream Sequence

I fell in love with a musician

a bright, serious player

his eyes on his loved one

        he feeds her endless devotion

His space adorned with no symbols 

plainness      if any

for the traces left is built in another dimension

one that pulses innate 

one that trigger midnight moans

you would know why

if they could be visualized

such tender ears to be loved

I beamed 

knowing that we speak the same language

Gripped and let loose

smiled as I adored 

your undivided attention

     not to me

but our language

our common ground

His thoughts, centralized

in the core of a purpose

indeed, to pursue one love

seems like the only thing one can achieve

I fell in love with a musician

he feeds her endless devotion

my weakness

lays between the lines -

I fell for you, my dear one

Untouched

Hush is our language

between golden bays, a mirrored reflection

and a distance that couldn't be measured


I fight with gargantuan strength

maybe too much for my existing gauge

I then forget where I stand,

my doubts not answered


have I forgotten of how much I despised to love?


My nest I build upon shall be revoked

for it will never be left admired

of such tender touch to be used, and to be reused

An inability, a conflict never resolved



Please forgive me

Swell

in a brink of being denied,

you shout and cried to be heard 

you curved like a ball in the corner to be noticed 

everything awfully possible, maybe 

but they hide in your head

the probabilities, the shades 

no, darkness 

they never rise, only linger

they never see light, 

how familiar

you are told to remain your poise

like a peacock 

composed, at least

what are we trying to achieve

what do we intend to become

because we are supposed to 

according to the Gods, the norm, or the authorities 

but you, dear one

you came to me like a shooting star

where I caught you falling

that moment I had my head tilt up

September Rain

Blue skies we bed, as we exchanged our last vows

there is no eternity,  no long lasting love

just a full stop to halt all progression



like silence but not really silent


Tears flow like a stream, naturally

though cause unknown

Romantics are the ones best in denial

like you and I






I love you
you said


Part of me believe, it's true


Part of me questioned, why should the fact be acknowledged,
when it is only entitled to be denied



I would like to tear myself apart
just so nothing made sense

and then you will notice

what it takes to put you and I
together





And now we shall exit

forward via the hallway

Just so you know,

miluji tě

Dandelion

I remember what you said, not

But the tone, and the breath behind it

Not sure if it was tailor made, just so you could run away

You were swift, you think

Convenience, hit and run



Moonlit me



Guess I lost it all to myself

home run; a grand slam


cause I know well, we lose each other

and died on the couch after we stabbed ourselves,

after the long, sweet smooch

of sweethearts




that,

I knew

was the last time that I'll ever get to see you