System: Corrupted

If it is not an option,

it doesn't exist. No one has to create a subject out of it.

Seize the image they've created. Especially when you are, undeniably,  the targeted victims.





Thus, I begin to miss you in the oddest ways.

This is how my most earnest, vast expression is to be tuned down to a monologue,

as silent as it should sound,

amongst the daily capacity of noise an average human can tolerate.





Geez, I'm jumping into a system now.

Swinging, Hidden Consciousness

Eid Mubarak.

What have I did in this entire span of year?

Oh, I was busy fixing / mending the abstraction of this multi-dimension puzzle I own

Sometimes I thought I was there already

Sometimes I was caught off guard

It felt sulky to be reacting in such manner

There was no Plan B.




I wonder, if I was FV311984 through your eyes, sometimes.

Since the vision was so clear, once when we still clung.



After observations,

I think I am paledophobic.

You may laugh, yes you, you may,

all that you like :)



Least I think,

my emotions were spot on,

because you were there.



Good morning love,

may the sunshine embrace you with my warmth,

as you shall be blessed from now on,

with all that is left over.

Rewind

I did not intend to look back,

but being in the land you've once grown on,

stirs such an uneasiness within me.

I tried so hard to have it covered,

so hard to have it balanced,

...work through all of that until I drove 100 km away from the city,

until I can barely concentrate on the road.



I've came a long way after you left

You stood up out of a sudden.

It wasn't fair at all, why did I even have to see that in behalf of your windows

I guess I've came to understand, maybe a little one thing or two about love

after the air time of the show came to pass,

commercials included.



You have then decided to progress at the speed of light since then

never to look back anymore


Should I have never remembered how you used to be

how you were to me

maybe not so much of what we shared

but the rather biased, unidirectional feelings I had for you


I might not have known it all, at all.


I'll greet you from afar, love

Kindly receive my warmest wishes.

Break The Ice.

So much of aiding the community of the unfortunate.

It is exactly like what is to be perceived:

Empathy of the majority will be evoked,

now... where does the power resides?


Much absorbed into your little own world that you work for,

you've forgotten the mechanism -which works from the wide view.

So much of speaking for your own organization, thus your stance of believes,

a self-representation of a sequence of action,

what are you working for, essentially?

The less fortunates, the company, or the society?


Yes, you may brag and warn others about your profession.

But you just can't even seem to help yourself.

The minorities don't need someone like you.

If you're thinking of making a difference,

please reconsider,

for your intentions might be channelled to a wrong form of motivation.

Still of The Night.

Your voice echoed so loudly,
like a big ol' bell,
vibrating, ...in circular motion,

...times like this,
it chooses to roar like a beast,

where are you,
where are you right now.

Scented

The sun was scorching


so blatantly




I spent my daytime gazing into your eyes

to keep myself distracted

...signs of repetitions and inconsistency


was just what was played from the surveillance tape recorded



If only I could forget about the world

take your hand

and dive into the deep blue sea


...that is how I came to miss you




Vision of a faded picture taken


slipped into the one-third slash of a book


your knock was soft as a petal


a mere fragrance there was

Okay?

'Okay!'

I would like to affirm to your nags.

Despite how pony, how jade you are,
my grin would outshine you, oh I know how they would...
make your day, maybe :)



I have been much engaged with oneirism lately,
and self snapped with a full mind blow subsequently.

Like how I used to believe in how effective mousetraps function.

I need no stimulus to keep me on my toes,
I have more than that to handle :)

I wish to hear from you!

and I wish you well.

Inspire me, love.

Like you always do.