I Am Not My Hair.

As I travel with the huge green white bus,

I suddenly feel that I am actually doing this alone.

She isolates me from the others.

I didn't have any idea that I am this comfortable with her. :)

I guess no one has to know.

Marlan.

I tasted the life of half a rich, today (and none of the famous).

I walked through places I don't think they walked before.

I toured mini bazaars, a book store, and some shop lots,

and landed by an Indian cuisine restaurant.

I went in and sat down and yes, flipped the menu.

It wasn't my choice but it was since I don't know when, that I've missed the feel of random wondering like this.

I wondered and go for a Buttered Chicken and I then wait and text and text.

The waiter was a friendly one, but I do not understand what he speaks.

It was English but I guess it is not that his English was just fair, my listening ability was as bad as well.

He talked and shared stories he had in his town, kindda annoying honestly,...

but I guess he's just lack of an extra pair of ears to lend upon of.

He said he is left out of uni, studying somethin-try and stopped during Year 2.

He said he left because he was married.

He said that who knows, maybe he'd work on his dreams someday.

And he said, despite of everything, he still has his family back in his homeland.

He said, he has two little girls, a 2-year-old and a 2 month old.

He said he has three beautiful women waiting for him at home.

He said his friends asked him about getting another woman here,

but he said again, he has a wife at home with his children,

and I was like...yea,

until he interrupted the conversation with a wipe on his eye.

He left as soon as he got emotional, and apologized.

And that is when I see a true man's words, leaking out through his emotions.

I want to tell him to stay strong,

to be hardworking so that he can earn and raise his family and have opportunities,

to continue his studies in his hometown,

and live happily with his three beautiful women.

As I leave the place,

he said 'by the way I'm Marlan.'

I confused.

again he said the same words, 'by the way I'm Marlan.'

but I am still in the state of confusion.

I gave a smile and left with a Byebye.

And I figured out that he was actually introducing himself at the 5th footstep of mine.

I murmured silently, a 'Good luck Marlan'.

(Oh yes the Indian style Buttered Chicken was splendid! :D)

Duh-Dub.

FADE INTO BLACK

Everybody know this is going somewhere..

I do not remember how the world spins.

How karma works.

I understand everyone is working hard for something,

but I still do not understand how things are meant to be measured... and gifted/ pounded/ pushed to one being.

It is not that I don't like to adapt myself.

Why am I working so hard on one when I am already destined to be another ?

And suddenly I wish that this is the only and best offer that I could get.

Speaking about choices, I'm glad this is a whooping fast 'decision'!

Duh-Dub, Dub-Dub.

FADE OUT

早上

早上起床时间
不算太迟

下去搭车时
天色是暗蓝的

我搭上去

说早安

转几圈

工作

好比在家一样

我把这里当 家 了（吗？）

Wind.

It is because I was never near to you,

and that I suppose, I tend to be obsess on you much easier.

I will leave with a plane one day,

not hoping to expect for anything...

and I will wish you love.

Less of A Cure.

Of course I went mad after a series of misfortune events.

I had no choice but to turn to the mamak stall that I would never step-on (if there weren't any choice left).

As the menu kept upsetting me by running out of stocks of pisangs, I too suddenly felt that someone out there had really kept his mind on confiscating my tad source of happiness.

In the end I couldn't take it anymore and just sat and waited for my food. (What I ordered was just a murmur-full of words.)

Suddenly out of no where the orange moon appeared.

It was like my date with her, and the sun, and the breeze, and a view of the night scene of a corner of ss2's.

You know, I just wanted to sit and see the world spinning along with its lifeless beings.

I had no idea of this is how much that I would want to escape from.

Lean On Me

There was a turn back,

where I had to run away from work once,

to somewhere I do things I love,

meet the people I am interested with,

even it means to stand in front of them and experiment myself,

talking out loud with instructions and critics,

where I actually found out that we sometimes do have to act in our lives.

And then it went quite well,

I think I've brought them up to a level that I see puffy white clouds,

they heard what I wanted to share them with,

they and I worked on hard together,

pretty much like

they got me, like I got them.

Sad thing was that I never let them know of how good they were,

and how proud I am actually to walk this with them.

They were too good for what I had back then,

I was just not there to see it.

But I will always remember what it feels like,

to bring up the very school choir and teach them sing.. from how I was molded once.

If could not have been another,

I love you CPT girls :)