build up

That measured moment when sights exchanged

got me transported

how much I wish that we can see the world

side by side

just us

you and I




you never did like to look up as much

rather buried in a state of ecstasy

but when you do, your eyes speak of curiosity

round and piercing

they speak to me

I just don't know how




I wonder what I'm leaving lose right now

a leak of fondness

I thought I've seen enough

hence a consciousness to envelope a self


you must be a shy one

and I've grown to be less expressive

I wonder if we'll ever be heard


till the end of time

wild curls

just as I sparked my journey of a fondness

expanded, boiled and reached out


I've came to acknowledge one of your physical attractions that got me gaga

thus, a mind that wanders beyond your first position presentation


and so I imagined of what's left behind

that small frame

thick framed glasses

big eyes

non-smiley expression

and that wavy-volumed mane

isn't that a reflection of state?


next thing we know is the length cut short

I didn't even get to express the loss


just maybe,

we deserve a piece of silence


just so we can run free

dissolve

my senses register to a familiar space

physicalized by a combination of some personal preferences

same old cement counter top, manned by 2 owners

shrunk in a vertical space, with lots of green and sunlight in the exterior

in the middle of the forest - not too deep

slightly paved for sustainable development

my favourite guys, which I don't really talk to

as usual, we just exist

this need not to be an indication

      just a fond little picture, constructed by my little subconsciousness

slowly

it dissolves into reality

Plan Z:

Jane is housebound and doesn't invite calls.

John has a recording session to make.

Judy has a flight to catch short after.

Jean doesn't feel comfortable being called to prep in a short span of time.

Jack responded in a different time zone, and is committed to a pre-arranged interview.

Jude has a busy schedule to attend to.

Josh isn't comfortable to speak upon the subject on a different vehicle. Maybe he understands that free speech could only be exercised on gray lines. The world wide web for example.

Jade feels she is not the right person to approach. She offered to help, though it functioned more like an act of kindness to be absorbed.

Jill checked her schedule and has to be present in a meeting.






Jason said yes.
And Jason hurt himself just right before and therefore is not able to make it, after our agreement.






God knows I've tried hard. At least the universe does.

sun ray peeping from the clowds

enough is enough, is enough, is enough

I shan't  kiss your feet

with my head inches from the ground

                 well off with a better space of intrigue

built in my head, 

taking place - just a tad, the matter of grey

if we couldn't come across, 

a platform to coexist, when talking about the ideals

where are we to stand one day

             no - wait,

it was always me

I am the cause of all mishaps

until we meet again, sweet

hug me tight and don't let go

before I've had enough 

this infatuation 

Stitch Binding: Volume 1

Do you have someone in your mind?

Yes.

Tell me about the person.

He resembles a world of contrast; honest and secretive, open and selective, sarcastic and reserved, strong and gentle, feminine and masculine, friendly and intimidating.

Constructed by such a kaleidoscope of planes and patterns, the more I discover, the more it expands.

He's an apple of many's eye.

What do you like about this person?

As much of a people's person, flamboyant full-time, his genuineness shines at times. He could be generous in giving, and in some situations, it spills off, selectively. Sometimes accidentally. 

He enters a space with confidence and a purpose, his goals are spelt on his forehead.

Sometimes he shies off a facade. 

What is this person's physical attributions?

Kind eyes. That's probably where you can see most of his true self. 

He has a body frame of a certain archetype - strong shoulders, well defined upper body 

and of course when he express with his body, he's speaks fluently and instinctively.

Sometimes a glow peaks at his cheek bones. And that is often perceived as an irresistible charm.

Also that handsome hue of his brown skin.

What do you feel about this person?

That he has so much to discover about his potential. I love the sense of rawness that he illuminates now and then, as if it is all done subconsciously. 

He has a very unique blend of flavour - at least to what I see.

Naturally I know what my reactions could be systematically qualified as - that I felt affection for him.

I would say I wish he feels the same, but there's no need for that.

I am not about to decide how this beauty feels.

He reminds me of the very untainted fondness one could feel. One that blossoms and nurture.

Do you have anything to say to him?

You're a wonderful being. 

I wish you could be constantly surrounded by affection, affection you deserve.

After thought:

My world could have been shrunk into the size of a palm.

But for all energy the universe has drawn, it says now, and the present is where it lives.

I thank you for for such reminders. 

Love

Being Alive

When we embraced

our joy couldn't be swapped

your smile was radiant

all I can do - was to receive




the lush, our company and the ball of glow

I wish nothing in between hindered our bodies

as simple as what was called upon









"cut!"

"next scene - episode 26, scene 5"