Time and space recalled
this particular density of the morning air
and the stillness coexisting within and outside of my body
waking up to your presence curled around me -
I remember longing for you this way, many months ago
when we were still close, intertwined
many moons after, we stopped talking
I lit a candle for you
your name whispered under my breath
I remember longing for you this way, many months ago
tenderly
I breathe to random strings of air
an undercurrent
I imagined folding a piece of paper, writing "(Name), I love you,
and this is my truth"
and I will have it offered to whoever that matters
My body, telling me stories
naming a pull
drinking in it all
performative or otherwise
I name it, my truth
including the grieve that is living in my body
I no longer want to live in a constructed oblivion
my prayers held close to my heart, regardless it being heard or not
my truth will always stay with me,
even if I'm misunderstood
even if I'm wounded
I will not retaliate, same as what we talked about the other day
I breathe to random strings of air
an undercurrent
buried in a hum, a buzz
I then started to sing
and move
freely
I would wake up to remember a thought
pen it down into my little notebook
include it into one of the things that I would rehearse to tell you
this time, it would be that I've always respected you
by telling you my truth, it doesn't mean that I intend to challenge
it is exactly because of how I adore you that I made sure to share with you - what matters to me
and that adoration still stays in me
I never thought that I could miss you so dearly
I've also been seeking the message to convey from my soul to yours
with me, you don't have to be afraid
I'll not bring harm to you
I am confident that nothing could go wrong
I am sure that I would protect your heart, like a warrior that I am
...isn't it odd? The roles I see myself experiencing when you're near me
Nothing would go wrong when we're together
Nothing
I don't wish that this is a burden to neither of us
I would do it, steadily collecting my reflections
and have them shared with you one day
my little glass balls
and the new found love I have for you and I
