You and I

I get excited,

thinking that I'm becoming you

having a vision that had your touch

perhaps a power of clairvoyance 

putting all into places

traces I wish to leave

a dance, a moment - and what it takes to create

I did it

my courage reminded me of you

and perhaps, that's what I've always admired about you - you remind me of my desires 

part of what I've always wanted to achieve

if I wonder why I still think of you

it is because you left a deep imprint in me

it is not about fairness - but it all had enough to be churned

I wish I could talk to you, and tell you about the many things I can share you with

though many had warned me 

I now know, how dangerous you can be

I can still be you to remind myself of many matters

and I shall wait for the day when it all gets better

until we meet again

Relational

I once wrote to you about the relationship you have with happiness

where it seemed straight forward, linear and obtainable 

I registered this alternative, and admired your tenacity and clarity

you paved the road for many

as for me,

I'd rather sit with my unconventional angle of the pursue of happiness 

working through my desires

I have instinctively chosen to sit with depth, the other sets of experiences - perhaps overlapping the spectrum of happiness

for I understood happiness may seem simple to be reached

but it actually is complex

especially when my will of attainment is strong

we took our risks, within each drawn limitations

though I must say that I love it when you soar at your peak of intensity

one could tell that you are happy - a sun like ball of energy

you are indeed a person with a big source of warmth

unbashful

it is okay to be unhappy

for happiness is not an end goal 

the action of pursuing it openly, is